I paint therefore I am


Mission Statement

To further the boundaries of the human experience of art with intellect, passion and innovation.

“And this grey spirit, yearning in desire,

To follow knowledge like a sinking star,

Beyond the utmost bounds of human thought.”


I am a conceptual, existentialist, performance artist that investigates the tension between the artist and the subject, and between the work of art and the audience.

My paintings are about looking at a person, permission to look, in exchange for some consideration.... essentialy about power and the use of power. With the finished work, again looking on the part of the viewer, participating in the power granted by the model to the artist.

Extremely conservative impulse, to capture time, hoard time by capturing the moments. Proust again.

Dialectic of: Puritanism vs. sensuality, decadence, hedonism, pleasure, fun, joy,

stoicism vs. epicurianism

Art lived in the moment, in the ambiance and the decisions made. Transfigured reality sustained by the internal logic of imagination and sensibility. Reality compromised with lyricism. These are the souvenirs of moments once lived. Enjoy!

“an arena in which to act” rather than as a place to produce an object. “What was to go on the canvas, was not a picture but an event.”

Harold Rosenberg

Performance art is a performance presented to an audience, traditionally interdisciplinary. Performance may be either scripted or unscripted, random or carefully orchestrated; spontaneous or otherwise carefully planned with or without audience participation.

"Speed, intuition, excitement - that's my method of creation".

----Georges Mathieu

I work with the gesture; it's how I feel it. Drawing has to do with dancing, with movement. I usually stand and move while drawing, I move the canvas, place it on the floor ... I feel that within this dancing I leave a trace, and this trace is my drawing.

Luis Scafati

Existentialism: The acting, feeling, living human individual. In existentialism, the individual's starting point is characterized by what has been called "the existential attitude", or a sense of disorientation and confusion in the face of an apparently meaningless or absurd world. Many existentialists have also regarded traditional systematic or academic philosophies, in both style and content, as too abstract and remote from concrete human experience. Søren Kierkegaard is generally considered to have been the first existentialist philosopher. He proposed that each individual—not society or religion—is solely responsible for giving meaning to life and living it passionately and sincerely ("authentically"). Existentialism became popular in the years following World War II, and strongly influenced many disciplines besides philosophy, including theology, drama, art, literature, and psychology.

Samuel Johnson: He who makes a beast of himself gets rid of the pain of being a man

William Faulkner's idea that "the best fiction is far more true than any kind of journalism — and the best journalists have always known this".

The New York Times noted that "Steadman's drawings were stark and crazed and captured Thompson's sensibility, his notion that below the plastic American surface lurked something chaotic and violent. The drawings are the plastic torn away and the people seen as monsters."[22]

Hunter S. Thompson was well known for his inveterate hatred of Richard Nixon, who he claimed represented "that dark, venal, and incurably violent side of the American character"[4

“Independent means…”

Confrontation and dialog between the artist and the viewer.

Savage aloneness, revolt against boredom, ennui, guilt,

Repulse, reject, resent, anger, comma.

To make the Art…:

That’s the thing

Draw it nice and make it sing. Lay it on thick, not too corny

Do it your way… get it just right.

Capture the moment,

Relate to the model, relate to the crowd.

What rhymes with ineffable?

Never put anything in that rhymes with simplistic

Avoid bathos.

A performance captured in paint:

The materials and media, The painting surface.

Figure painting: several hours of my life, the model, the group, my wife, my family,  the music they’re playing.

Or landscape:

The search for the subject; “What… picturesque?” (very sarcastically);  the cold; the heat; the wind; the sun; the time of year; the wackos walking by;  the little children, touching the paints, leaning on the easel; cars honking. Design, graphic design, Sumi, think hard! Does it ineff enough?

Touching it up at home, feeling faintly guilty about it, phony. (do not say anything that rhymes with awful).

Museum of myself, made just for me. Private delectation. Fulsome praise.

A lifetime of observing art and life and reading about it too:

My teachers, Neufeld, McGuire, Carmean, ol’ what’s his name, and the other one.

Heroes and villains, Hals (the master), Velasquez, Caravaggio, Van Gogh, Sargent, Mancini, Fechin,  Villon, Verlaine, “Les Fleurs du Mal”, “J. Alfred Prufrock” you  know….ah, um, go to the internet to look.

“…violent and grotesque ‘Women’ series of Willem DeKooning’s figurative paintings.”, Ab-Ex., Chaim Soutine, I could go on…

Forgetting, denying, annihilating any thought of the market, the public, my family,  the vast Other who count (7 billion and growing, Google again).

Pity those of us without independent means, Villon, John White Chadwick, John O’Hara, Van Gogh, Hals, Goldsmith, inter alia.

Leaning on them, their bright shining stars,

Scraps of memories read, paintings seen on travels, in books, the internet, in taverns and flea markets.

Reputation, vanity, self respect, tied up with finance.

Harlen Coben’s pals “Kick ass in their respective careers”.

Do your very best, do it often. Network.

Furthermore brethren, we beseech you, and exhort you that as that as every one of you knows and have recieved of us how that you ought to walk, and to please God, that you would do it. That you would paint every day, without ceasing.